you are a disgrace to persuade people to turn away from the Lord who has created heaven and earth. You must understand that there is a satan who doesn't care about you or anyone else in this world. Satan wants to kill, steal, and destroy. You must rememeber that someday you are going to leave this world and you are going to answer to God. So if you think God is responsible for all of the destruction that has happen then apparently you need to attend a christian church where the word is being taught. Do not blame your unhappiness on God. God loves you and you are a product of his creation. I will pray for you and I hope your mind will be renew someday.