Interesting read........., clearly you are frustrated with the "common

understanding and explanations" of God, and His world.  However, out of 1.7

million topics that you could chose to write and comment about.........,

you've chosen this as one of them, or maybe the only one!

This indicates to me that "something" is churning inside.........., and

you've done exactly what you should do......., vent it out, and let us know

how you feel that Christianity today is giving you the "song and dance".

The last 65 years of the presentation of the Gospel...., has in fact,

probably as you put it, knocked God off the wall.  We have done a miserable

job (actually an incredibly great job at screwing it up) in representing

"God".  The only intent of the maker and provider of your every breath, was

for him to be glorified, in everyway., shape and form. 

We, since the days of conquering NorthAmercia, and killing all whom did not

want to be "saved"  (figure that!), have gotten quite distracted by one sole

event, "the life and story of Christ". Not wanting to diminish this

incredible event, it was "one" event. Again, going back to/for the same

reason " To Glorify God ". 

Not believing in the God of creation, only leaves you with "Darwin's"

theories.........., which by my calculation, takes about 27 times more faith

than what I need to believe in God, and what lies ahead for the ones who

believe, VS the ones who don't. So, if it's God your bucking, your a

gambling man that has the much larger cohunas than I !!!

In summary, now that you've flushed out your thoughts, odds are very much in

your favour, that the road your pursuing, will lead you to the truth, so

don't stop.!!